Ok, well, so much for my "new committment" to weekly blogging. It's such a mental block that "free time must be spent" no matter how much I ENJOY just sitting her writing for 30 minutes or so. Oh well, I suppose, with practice, I'll get better at this.
I just created, on "Shutterfly.com" my son's first birthday invitations! What a moment that was. Looking through photos of him from the day he was born until yesterday and thinking about the concept of time again. How intangible it is but how affected we are by its existence. How much I love the fact that he is happy, healthy, growing and developing but how sad it makes me feel that a year of his life is already through. The only thing I can compare it to is the feeling you get when someone deflates Christmas for you and reveals the truth about Santa Claus. Suddenly, all the magic is gone and the Holiday that used to feel like it took ages to arrive is now popping up quicker and quicker each year. And you think to yourself "just try to hold onto that magic!" But you don't and it just becomes a constant reminder that another year is done! I have had so many moments since his birth that I've basked in that magic and then so many others where I feel sad that time keeps moving no matter what we do.
Declan will be a year old on October 8th. We can't celebrate his birthday on his actual DOB because his Uncle Ryan will be off on Army training which, normally, wouldn't be such a big deal but Uncle Ryan goes "Active Duty" next year and may miss the next few birthdays all together :(. So, we opted to bump it a week so he can be there. Declan loves his aunties an uncles and I think its important for everyone to share in those memories. Photos are probably all he'll remember of this first birthday so to have everyone there in those photos will be priceless. Not to mention it'll probably make for great memories for Uncle Ryan ;)
So much happens in a year. I suppose it always has but having a baby around makes that a lot clearer. I was watching him today hiding our cable remote in the dog food bench, dumping Indiana's (the dog's) water all over the floor and stuffing toys into my front loading washing machine thinking "God, I remember when you would just lie for HOURS on your activity mat, staring at the dangly toys and be content. Now, you have about $1200 worth of toys in the living room alone and you want nothing to do with any of them unless you're drowing them in Indi's water bowl!" Sometimes, I have to force out a giggle to remind myself that this is all ok. That he's exploring his world and having fun doing it and it's ok! But keeping up sure is becoming a bigger challenge! As they say in the Army, "Adapt and Overcome."
